want vs need…which to feed?

I start my morning practice getting comfortable in a seated position, lifting the front and back body equally and softening with every breath. I focus on each part making up the whole. Hands at my heart in prayer (anjali mudra) I bow to my brilliant heart (a thought that would have NEVER entered my mind until a couple of months ago).

Early in this week during my morning ritual I recognize I’m practicing to be in right relationship with myself in body, mind and spirit in a compassionate light. Yoga brings my full attention to being balanced in the most subtle ways.

My relationship ‘scale’ has been tipped for a long time in one direction, focusing on others…Can you relate to that?

I’ve tried burying hurt over the fact I have no relationship with my mother, dreaming of a relationship with my father, longing for a healthy relationship with my sister, through intimate relationships trying to be what I thought someone else wanted me to be and at work feeling the lesser compared to many. As a young single parent my relationship with my daughter has been an awakening joy. This great joy has fueled my fires of desire to be the absolute best person I could be regardless of messages I was raised with and the stories I had in my head.

This year began with my theme for “Healing from the inside out,no matter the cost“. Reflecting on this theme I feel that I was very successful with the enjoyment of meeting the needs of my own self from the inside out.

At the start of 2010 I read this piece almost daily:

My Beloved Child
Break your heart no longer
Each time you judge yourself
You break your own heart.
You stop feeding on the love,
Which is the wellspring of your vitality
The time has come. Your time
To live
To celebrate
And to see the goodness that you are.
You my child are divine
You are pure
You are sublimely free
You are god in disguise
And you are always perfectly safe.
Do not fight the dark,
Just turn on the light.
Let go
And Breathe into the goodness that you are.
~Swami Kripalu

This teaching of Swami Kripalu’s made me deeply sad, hopeful and strong. For me a consistent yoga practice coupled with healing work from a mix of modalities has built me up to heal and see myself more clearly.

I am proud to acknowledge I have become more aware of what I need. I work towards being balanced in my precious relationship nurtured by love and celebrating the light and the dark.

Look under my Links page for : HEALERS Related Websites …I am so very thankful to each of these talented people for helping me to become more aligned with my desire of Healing from the inside out.



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1 Buffie { 10.24.11 at 7:37 am }

This info is the cat’s pmajaas!